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Gene Testa Tattoo - Robinsons Galleria Ortigas

Thanks : Leng (Tattoo Artist). My Bestfriends Ubeh & Ruslen, means so much to me that you guys were there. Darwin for helpin me with the Design

CALLIGRAM TATTOO : its a 6-sided Star (my fave shape) with All the Names of My Family Members including Mine, My SurName, My BirthDate & other Important Dates

I made sure that my first ever Tattoo would be really Personal to me..

~Isnt it Nice to Know that theres ‘Somethin’ that Really Lasts Forever?

(gettin my Second 3 Months from now.. it’ll b my Last!)

Shopped & Ate after : Sushiya Japanese Restaurant & La Creperie for our MakeUrOwn Crepes!

Bangungot

i decided to sleep last night after havin Dinner.. the moment i closed my eyes, i started havin a bad dream right away.. i quickly snapped out of it.. thinkin it was merely coincidence, i slowly closed my eyes and attempted to go back to sleep & the moment my upper eyelids touched my lower eyelids i started havin a bad dream again.. everythin is spinning, its very fast, i was almost gettin dizzy, im falling in what seems like an infinite drop, i tried to look up but all i see is darkness and a lil bit of smoke.. then i heard a familiar voice, my Mum.. i felt happy because for a while i thought the dream was over until she started shouting my nickname.. i can see her yanking me like crazy but my body was unresponsive.. i felt like cryin but no tears came out & the only thing i could do is listen to my heart beat faster.. another thing that caught my attention: lying by my bedside is a person, wearin a hooded cotton sweatshirt, a mustard brownish-like color.. at first i thought it was my sister, until i finally got a zoomed view only to see it without a face with the hood covering its head.. until now i dunno how to describe it.. Black. thats what i saw..

it convinced me that i am still in a dream.. still sleeping.. & my Mum shouting is freakin me out as hell.. i started shouting back, she cant hear me, i was screaming at the top of my lungs, at least as far as i know i am.. what freaked me out is it feels like im in my senses but my body aint responding to whatever actions my brain is tellin me to do.. then came the spinning & falling feeling again.. i started to struggle using my feet with full force but i feel somethin heavy in them keepin me down.. i dunno how long it lasted until i finally got to wake up AGAIN..

REALITY

i now lie alone in my room.. wow 2 dreams in a row.. that felt really weird.. its dark, Mum's not there & so is the hooded girl, i didnt see her face but her body definitely dictates that SHE is.. i wasnt graspin for breath.. i was expecting i would or be panting at least, with all the shouting & kicking i did (when i used to get nightmares where i run or do somethin tiring, i normally would by the time i wake up).. i lay there shocked, i dunno if im really back or what.. my eyes started gettin heavy again.. then unconsciously a thought came to me.. what if i fell asleep again but this time, i dont get to wake up anymore.. i didnt know what to feel.. i started to pray for safety.. then decided not to go to sleep.. i stood up, opened the door & next to my room is my brother's.. saw my lil sister playin PSP.. im sure if she heard me shouting she would be knockin at my door.. walked over to the Master's Bedroom & saw my Mum sleeping soundly.. i felt traumatized to sleep.. somethin i love overdoing turned out to something that scared me to death.. i juz decided to browse a bit & play video games..

4am : i was tryin to fight my bed but the next thing i know is its 10am already & here i am writing about the events of last night.. its Freaky if you ask me thinkin that it was 'supposed' to be the End of the World yesterday in my timezone.. come to think of it, could've really Ended mine..

close friends would know that i am not afraid to die, but last night was the first time i feared for my life..

~i dunno if this is medically related or im juz bein Paranoid but im not goin to Sleep after eating, specially Full again...

Osama Bin Laden

I woke up to news & tweets that he is Dead.. everybody seems to be rejoicing.. i dont get the point why.. & please dont mock me for this because iv never liked this person either..
a death for me is supposed to be sad, because a life is lost.. whether a good or bad soul..
remember that like each of us, he has his own family & people who loves him dearly.. who in this very minute are probably mourning..
People need to be respected specially in death.. its like backstabbing..

My brother was killed in a shooting incident at a Bar & Restaurant in Katipunan.. that was 2004.. i didnt know the shooter, my parents didnt allow me to attend the court hearings for protection.. i wasnt even allowed to see him in Prison when he was arrested, my parents kept me away from him.. there was hatred in my heart against him, for takin the life of a person iv loved all my life.. 4 years later, he committed Suicide using the same gun that took my brother's life.. at that time i was supposed to rejoice that he's finally dead.. but in the contrary, i wasnt happy nor was i sad either.. i felt numb.. i then realized that because God helped me durin those tryin times in my life.. he also healed my heart from the miseries, the hurt, the pain & the hatred.. i believe everythin happens for a reason.. whether we like it or not.. my brother was taken from us.. but in return, two people were able to See.. he gave a brighter future to two beautiful kids.. in my mind & in my heart, he is very alive.. knowin i have my own guardian angel up there.. makes me feel at peace all the time.. & its true.. you only get stronger after the storm..

my life would never be the same without him, but he is the reason why i am livin every moment.. & he will be the reason why i am lookin forward to the future..

"eye for an eye makes the whole world blind"

May God Help those who Lost their Loved ones set their Hatred Free from this man’s hunger for power…  

- Barack Obama

..im juz sayin